Monday, January 19, 2009

One month exactly..

It has been that long since Ben has been gone. Everything was going smoothly until I got a phone call from my FRG Saturday night (the night that it had been a month that he has been gone). First she introduces herself and then she tells me that there was a chinock helicopter that crashed in Afghanistan. My heart immediatly dropped. She informed me that Ben was not on that helicopter and that he was alright otherwise I would have gotten a different phone call from someone higher up in the command. I was really relieved to hear that but at the same time I just couldnt quit crying. I couldn't believe that something actually happend. I cant even begin to describe the feelings that I was having. I immediatly called Stacey and asked if she had heard anything and just cried to her because I know she knew what I was going through.

I ended up going on with my plans that night and went to my friends bday party and when I got home later on I had an email from Ben! He said that he was okay and safe and that he would explain later! He called me the next morning and told me that he was not flying that day but that our friend was on that helicopter. He didnt get hurt but one guy had to go to Germany for treatment and one soldier died. The guy that died was being transported to go home and start his R&R. I couldnt believe it. I dont know the soldier that died but I feel so deeply connected to what happened. I grieve for his family because I cant even imagine what they must be feeling like. I will be praying for them and the rest of our soldiers over there and pray for their safe return home.

As for the rest of my weekend... I had a sleepover with my niece and nephew last night!!! I had so much fun!! I love them to pieces!!! Sophie is so silly I just laugh everytime she does something, good or bad! lol Brayden is just so gosh darn cute I just want to squeeze him to pieces!!!
I hope the rest of you had a great weekend!! Enjoy the short week at work!

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Certain In-laws

I just don't get it. I am trying to be nice and keep them all informed of what is going on with their nephew being overseas and do I get a 'Thank You' in return?? Hell no. Okay here is the thing, as you all know my husband is overseas and about twice a month I send out an email to all of our friends and family members and let them all know how he is doing. This past one I sent out I also sent his address along with it. Well.. I have had his address for awhile but back when he was in basic he gave us the wrong one and he didn't get alot of our letters until two weeks before he graduated. I didn't want something like that to happen again so I decided to send him a postcard from Florida and see if it arrived at the address he gave me. Well two days after I sent the postcard he calls me and tells me that there is a minor change in his address!! I WAS RIGHT PEOPLE!!!! He still ended up getting the post card but it did end up taking longer than expected! So anyways, I got his new address and once I got home from Florida I emailed everyone it. Well, after sending it I get emails back from our friends and my family, and some of his family too, saying 'Thank you', 'glad to hear he is doing good' yadda yadda. I am glad to get those because I know that they are receiving the emails and appreciate them. Well a certain in-law of mine never writes back. They are the ones that wanted him not to marry me and it just really pisses me off that they don't appreciate that I keep them up to date of what is going on with their nephew. I don't have to send them those emails, I didn't have to give them his address but I did/do because I know that is what Ben would want me to do. I know that I am probably blowing this all out of perspective but it just hurts knowing that when I'm trying to keep them informed about Ben they just don't care. I just don't get how people are just so darn disrespectful. IDK, maybe all of this is because there are still issues between us that have nothing to do with this post or what, I just know that if they don't start respecting me soon, then the emails about Ben are going to stop. I am not going to put up with their bullshit. I wont do it. I have too much other stuff going on then to have to worry about them.
Sorry everyone, I had to blow off a little steam!!!

Tuesday, January 13, 2009


I think I am going to really start living by these three words. First off let me just say that I got a new phone today, the Vu, and I LOVE it!!! haha anyways..
Alot has been going on with me over the past few weeks. I got back from Florida and me and my dad still weren't getting along. There are two things that bug me about my dad, one, he is an alcoholic, two, he has an anger problem. Well the two don't mix very well. Needless to say, I moved out and am now staying with a friend until I move to IL at the end of the month. I am very thankful that Laurenn opened her home to me to stay at until I move. This is where the Live, Laugh, Love comes into play. With Laurenn we are laughing all the time, mainly because of her but you would have to know her to understand what I'm talking about, lol, and I have found that over this past week of just laughing all the time that I am much, much happier than I was living at my dads house.
The Live part comes into play by saying that no matter what happens in life you still must go on living. When Ben deployed it was really hard on me not being able to talk to him when I wanted or drive down to TN to see him but just because he is gone doesn't mean that my life, or his, has stopped. We are both doing what we can while he is deployed to make the time go by faster.
Love, well everyone needs love. We need love from our family and friends. I am very much in love with my husband and I don't know what I would do without him. I also love all my family and all my friends. I have the most amazing family and a great group of friends. I love them all!!!!

Anyways... I know this blog is not like others that I have written but for some reason today, of all days, those three little words hit me square in the face. I have always liked: Live, Laugh, Love, but they never really had a deep meaning to me as they do now. IDK, I'm weird I guess but I thought I would share.
I'm sure some of you are wondering 'moving? your moving? when? where?' To fill you all in I am moving to IL with Stacey, a friend from TN who's husband is also overseas, at the end of Jan. My last day of work is the 31st and I am going to try to move that weekend. If I don't end up moving that weekend I will be moving the next weekend. We are going to be living close to Springfield, IL!! I am very excited!! Stacey has a six month old that I love to pieces and I cant wait to see her again!!! Also, Stace and I are going through the same thing with our husbands being gone, so we are going to keep each other sane while our men are gone! lol Or at least try anyways! lol

As for things happening here at home.. I am enjoying spending time with my niece and nephew before I leave!!! We are having a sleep over this weekend and I am totally looking forward to it. It couldn't get here soon enough!!!!

Work is going well!!! I wish I could take them all with me to IL and work up there with them but I know that can't happen!

Ben is doing really well. I talk to him about 6 or 7 times a week. It really just depends on if he has the day off or not. I sent him his first care package yesterday!!! I can't wait for him to get it!!! Im sending another one our for Valentines day at the end of the month before I leave. He says that he has been taking pics but the Internet is too slow to upload them fast enough so he is going to try to burn them onto a CD for me and mail it to me so hopefully here within the next few months I can post some pics of overseas!!! or at least him!!! I do miss him so much and it is very hard being away from him, but I just keep looking towards the future and all of our big plans that I don't let myself get down. I know that he wouldn't want me to do that! We are both independent people and know how to take care of ourselves so I know we are going to be just fine. I love you so much Ben!!!! Please stay safe and call when you can!!!! I love you!

{Me with my neice and nephew!!!!}

Rascal is doing good.. just being Rascal!! lol
My friend, Erica, is getting married the 26th of April so I have been helping her make invitations for her wedding and stuff!! I am so excited for her!!! I cant wait for her and Matt to get married, they pretty much are, they just need the legal part done! lol haha love ya!
One last thing.. I am having a 'See ya later' dinner on Saturday the 24th. I am going to have everyone that I love so dearly, get together so that I can see everyone one last time before I move because these next few weeks are my last weeks living in the state of MO for probably the rest of my life!!!! Me and Ben plan on staying in TN and raising our family, mostly because he will probably stay in the military but also because it is so gosh darn beautiful down there! Anyway if you would like to attend just shoot me an email or comment and let me know and Ill get you the place and time!!
I hope everyone has a great rest of the week!!! Bundle up because it is gonna get cold!!!! Love ya!

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Walt Disney World

Disney World was AMAZING!!! I loved it!! I felt like such a kid again!!! I love how you can go to a place and everyone can have fun because there is something there for everyone!!! Our plane left at 6pm Christmas night and landed in Orlando at 9pm their time. We had a Disney World pass for seven days!! So the day after xmas we went to the Magic Kingdom, which was my favorite park! Then on Saturday Cheryl, my stepmom, her cousin came and took us to Sea World, not as much fun as Disney. Then on Sunday we went to Animal Kingdom, Monday was Epcot, Tuesday was the beach!!!, Wednesday was Magic Kingdom again, Thursday and Friday were Hollywood Studios!! My two favorite rides were the Tower of Terror and the Aerosmith ride which are both at Hollywood!! The weather was perfect while we were down there as well. We wore shorts or Capri's most days. The last two days it was a little chilly but nothing like here at home.

I also go to talk to Ben while I was down there! I couldn't believe that he could call me! I was so happy. I miss him so much and I really wanted him there but we both agreed that when we have kids and they are old enough to remember, we are going to take them to Disney World! I cant wait for that time to come!! (and yet at the same time I can! lol haha)

Well that's about all I'm going to post for now. Not really in the typing mood tonight! Enjoy the pics and Happy New Year everyone!